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Back to good, no, just old WW...

I've been back in Walla Walla for 1 week now and what an experience it's been. I love it and loathe it all at the same time, never knew it was possible to feel both emotions so strongly at one time. It's good to be back home to a place I recognize. I love the family feeling of this small town and enjoy seeing old friends and making new ones. I enjoy working with awesome kids at the Jr. Academy in Milton Freewater where I spend more than 15 hours a week. I love reconnecting with returning SM's and celebrating our universal confusions about returning to Walla Walla. I loathe the feelings of worry and anxiety that overwhelm me as I walk down the sidewalk. The fear of failure that retorts from years past and seems to haunt me everywhere I go. The feeling that nobody understands and that I walk alone. I feel exhausted after a day of interaction with people I haven't seen in over a year and it makes me want to curl up in bed and never go outside again, and when I do see